It’s difficult to find the words to express oneself.
At first, even though I attended the local elementary school, I couldn’t understand what the teacher was saying, and didn’t even understand what subject I was supposed to be studying. But after three years of living there, my English improved, and I was even able to get good grades. It even got to the point where I would argue with my younger brother in English, but that’s when I began to forget Japanese. I spoke Japanese at the supplementary school I attended, but was forgetting more and more kanji and expressions, and felt a growing sense of urgency that this was bad. I especially struggled to find words to express myself, and felt caught between having both half-baked Japanese and half-baked English.